I **** my life right now, it seems. I am in my forties, a single parent to a *******. My childs fatherleft me while pregnant got another preg at the same time, wouldnt help for 2 years, then took me to court for 4 for custody. i had to quit school to deal with it all. i worked menial jobs- waitress ect. i finally went back to school, worked- NO social life. work, sleep, school, child. now i am graduated finally in prof position, which i am starting. childs dad puts me down all the time or wont talk, wont resolve, tells me my life suc@s, i am a loser, basically. my friends i used to have no longer interest me at ALL. i have moved on, they havent. I am scared to start my new job/responsibilties. i struggled for so long, i am jaded: i have lived in terrible neighborhoods, had to deal with bad bosses, neighbors, ect. I feel lonely and actually didnt want a man before, now i feel desperate somehow to find someone to share my life with, but cant. I **** my apartment and want to mov